We'll talk about something that has just been at the forefront of my brain. 

That is, when you ask for a better version of your life, you will have to change. 

You bring a new sense of self to the table. 

What's going to happen? I would like to talk about our spirits as energy. 

Our spirits are expansive. 

They're huge. They're more significant than the universe. 

It's to quote Aladdin, the genie in Aladdin, and they're just stuffed into this little bitty living space. 

If we are that expansive, but we're kind of limited, we're not kind of. We are limited to gravity, sleep, food, water, and time.

These are things that we have to deal with in the body. 

When we want a better, energetic experience, we want to feel alive, have new experiences, and grow. We have to get out of the old energies, and some of those old energies have trauma attached to them. 

Maybe we have traumatic childhoods, perhaps we have had a nervous system that's just always in fight or flight, or perhaps it's been in fight or flight so long that it's just gone into dorsal mode.

We've just nosedived, and we can't even dream about our life anymore. 

People are like, what do you want? 

We're like, I don't know. I don't know. I can't think of anything that I actually do want. Right? 

When those kinds of things happen, that is an energetic frequency in which we live. But we created it. Right? 

We have to take responsibility for everything that's happened since we were 18. Anything before that is programming, right? 

We are just walking databases of all the programming we've ever received when we were thinking to ourselves, from an underdeveloped brain as a child, "Oh, do this, not that." Oh, and do it because of this, not that. 

We weren't right necessarily because we had underdeveloped brains. 

We were just looking for someone to love us. We just need you to see the goodness that we are, right? 

We are looking at our caregivers to do that. 

We came into life adulthood at a particular frequency. 

We may have had low frequency, moderate frequency, or high frequency, depending on the data we've collected.

If your brain is 100% made up of everything that's ever happened in the past, and your thoughts, behaviors, and feelings are what make up your personality, then you may not be happy with where you are, or you're just ready to expand, right? 

We may struggle with the past, but maybe we're just ready for expansion. We're not sure what direction that is, and we can't see how to do that.

I'm just going to put this out there: Your brain doesn't know anything about the future. 

We can dream about it, we can have hopes about it, and we can even practice visualizing it, but we have not lived it, so it has not yet become data in our minds.

Our minds are only operating for anything that's ever happened. 

We can remember good experiences, and we'll know that they're something that we want to experience again, but we also know what we've had in the way of bad experiences. 

Then anything that has a sense, a flavor, or a hint of that now can trigger those emotions that tell us it's not safe. 

We might be criticized, judged, abandoned, rejected, or something. 

That's not safe to us because little children are the most afraid of those things. 

In this space of wanting more, we're built for more; we're not all.

If we weren't built for more, we'd still be crawling, right? 

We never would have gotten up on two legs to discover that we could ride bikes and drive a car.

If we are built for more, then we might want more love, more money, more satisfying relationships, more community, and more opportunities to serve and receive service. 

We should most likely want more of that. 

If that is the case, we have to make room. 

We have to find a spot for that energy to live, exist, and become this new state and frequency of becoming.

Now, if you listen to podcast episode 49, I talked about why we're so exhausted. 

Staying the same is exhausting, but it's familiar, so we keep doing it. It's like we're just doing it over and over and over. 

We don't have a chance to evolve when we do that.

It's in the process of remembering who we are. 

We are divinity. We are divine children of God.

In that idea, then he wants an abundance of everything for us.

He wants us to have the best experiences. Right? 

Wouldn't you want your children to have the best experiences? Of course. 

Are we patterned after God? Absolutely. 

He wants us to have the best, and we're like, no, it's okay. I'll work hard, and I'll suffer." No, no, no. 

He's not asked. He's never asked us to do that. 

We're like volunteering, but why? Let's not volunteer for that. 

Let's just say that more is for us. He wants us to expand, evolve, and have more experiences. 

Those experiences will include what not to do and what to do, right? There has to be opposition in all things.

That's why everything has a learning seed if we think bad things are happening to us. 

That seed has been planted, so we'll know that our desires will grow into something even more beneficial. 

There has to be space in that idea. It's like saying, "I want a garden, but you didn't prepare the soil." 

You're not; there is no soil. It's like, we're just going to sprinkle it on concrete. 

All the seeds get on concrete, and even though there's sun, rain, and an intention to grow a garden, the garden is not going to increase because it's on pavement. There's no soil for it. 

We have to prepare the soil, and we have to be ready to do something we've never done before. 

We have to be in a space where the temptation is to go back and be our old selves, do the familiar things, and, you know, watch more TV. 

Let's say we were couch potatoes before. 

We were watching TV, careless with what we were eating, and it was too late to get the sleep we needed.

We're doing all these things that bring guilt. We're like, "Well, I could do better, but I'm too tired. I don't want to," and so we don't, but at what point do we want to? 

Usually, it's a health spare; usually, it's your income is correct. 

Usually, when a relationship is falling apart, it is something that gets your attention to shift, but what if we have decided to out that everything is dismantling? 

What if we were like, "Okay, if I am going to have better health, then I'm going to go to bed sooner rather than later?"

Wake up more refreshed, not so exhausted. 

We're going to have to figure out a way to make sure that that happens consistently because it's just so easy to remember that we want better health and then to forget how to do it and want it and then forget.

I don't want it, and I forget, and now we're like, "Never mind. I don't want it." I don't want it to resonate like you hear it.

When I decided that I wanted to make my inside and outside appearance match, I had to reverse engineer my entire family schedule because that was the only way I could not exercise every morning consistently.

If I was getting up tired, I had to get the same eight hours that I needed when I was going to bed late and getting up a little later, but to do this new intention to get up at five o'clock every morning, just get feet on the ground, brawn backward; it doesn't matter. 

We're going to be on the ground at five at eight.

It won't work on Leslie. It just needs to be more sustainable. We know that. 

Dinner happens sooner, homework happens sooner, getting the kids' story time happens sooner, family time happens sooner, and everything happens sooner in the evening. 

They would go to bed an hour sooner. I had to go to bed an hour earlier, and then I could get up. 

Sometimes, you have to reverse engineer. That was me making space in my life for the new me I asked for. 

What is it that you want? What is it that you're doing to a whole space? 

Every day, that space is still there for you to step into and grow with. 

What are you doing to ensure that that happens? Otherwise, we remember who we are and then go back. 

We're like, I will build a course for women who want to know how to bake. 

Then you start on it, but then you're like, I don't know what I'm doing. 

Our brains get the worst of us, and then we go back to watching our favorite baking shows and watching somebody else live their purpose. 

The tenacity it takes to stay in a new frequency of, "If I can't figure it out right now, I will reset my nervous system, and up to 100% the frequency of who you are being is what moves you forward."

If you are a frequent doubter, I don't know what I'm doing; you will return to doing what doubt did.

Doubt kept you from your dream of building a horse for women who want to learn how to bake.

You just go back like, I don't know. 

No, we don't get to have your dream. 

We don't get to have our skills, gifts, or talents as part of our life experience. 

We don't get to get; we don't get to have that because doubt sets in, and the frequency of doubt leads us back to doing what's familiar.

 It's only a no, it's safe. 

Instead of saying, well, even if I don't know, I will do it because it's fun. 

If I don't know the content for the modules, I will start creating the book's artwork. 

You start having fun with it.

It's like, well, you know, baking can be messy. 

I'm just going to allow this process over here to be messy. 

That is opening up a new frequency of acceptance for where you are, how you are, and how this experience is going so that you can gift that it was only you could deliver it that way. 

Only you could share your gifts with the people who are looking for the perfect modules to help them learn how to bake. 

You are making space for yourself. 

Now let's talk about the nervous system. Let's talk about “little you”. 

“Little you” is like wanting to be seen, validated, and heard. 

She wanted to be understood, and she wanted to be seen.

The bright, shiny little love bug didn't get that validation.

She didn't get the support, guidance, and confidence boosters from the adults that she needed to really believe in herself.

Then we've gone through life not believing in ourselves, looking outside ourselves with answers or information. I need to learn how to do this. 

Everybody else is going to have the answer I need. 

We're like; we just turn our entire life Googling it right check-in Instagram, Facebook. 

Who knows something? I don't know. 

How are they all behaving so I can match that energy? 

Are you really going to get the inspiration you need because that's where the new frequency comes from? If you ask for Support, what's one thing I can do today?

That will help me develop into the person I found myself not being happy and cheerful all the time, that children didn't make messes, and that I would just be a Suzy Hillmaker.

Then Q reality. 

I had four kids going and didn't know what I was doing. Help me. 

I was praying for help, and I was asking guys like you just got to show me a better way because I have one shot at doing this mothering thing, and I don't want to blow it.

I don't want to look back with much regret even though I have a lot of regret. I just didn't like as much sadness as I thought I might have. 

This author showed up.

I prayed for this inspiration and looked, and then it was presented. I don't even know how this author came into being.

But this author, Linda Eyre, wrote a book. She had nine kids. 

She was like teaching them all music on that, so we could put on our work suits and deliver magnificent speeches inspiring the world to be good mothers. 

Then, it seemed impossible that this could be a mentor for me. And then she told a story that I hit my funny bone. 

She was, it was back when they had the big station wagons, you know, and there were no seatbelt rules in that day. 

The backdown and the back seat faced out the window just to make room for prominent families. 

Her kids had been at each other's throats all morning just bickering, arguing, and fussing, and she was just like, oh my gosh, I just can't do this anymore. 

She put everybody in the car, and they went to pick peaches because she was going to do all the canning, which was one of those things. 

I was like, this is unreal.

And so they went to the order, picked all these peaches, and had kids turning around backward on the back bench and facing out the window. The window was down, and suddenly, everybody was pleasant on the way home. 

She was like, "Finally, everybody's just getting along. They're not fighting." This is amazing. My prayers have been answered. 

She looks in the rearview mirror, and they are taking the peaches and hooking them out the back window at the cars driving behind them. 

I was like, oh, thank you. Thank you for this reality check.

Thank you for showing me that you better come to motherhood with a sense of humor. 

I was asking for help and expanding my new self, but I needed an ingredient. The ingredient was humor.

I was being way too serious. I thought that was reality.

When I started using humor, I was like, it's a mess. So what? It's going to get cleaned up. 

This is just an example of my life and how I wanted expansion.

 I had made and set an intention to be better, do better, be less severe, and go with the flow.

I had to do something to open up the space to stay that knew me more often than sliding back to deal with me.

It doesn't mean I didn't have days when I was cranky and frustrated with my kids. 

But it did mean that there was a greater chunk of time spent in this higher frequency of laughter, humor, fun, and playfulness, which resets the nervous system. 

My nervous system was always rattled. I've always been in fight-or-flight. 

I'm hoping someday I'll notice that I shift into third gear and go back to that polyvagal state of just peace and calm. 

But until that day, I practice every day, resetting my nervous system so little I doesn't get rattled with this constant need to expand, which is who I am at the core of it. 

I've reinvented myself over and over and over. 

In doing that, you have to make space for the new you. 

Sometimes, I was in the depths of despair. 

Sometimes, I was just crying to God, please help me get 

Me up out of this mess. 

But what I didn't know back then that I know now and can tell you about is resetting your nervous system. It was episode 47.

If you want to go back and listen to that on my podcast. 

In episode 48, I also described little you when you reset your nervous system. 

You have to know who “little you” is.

She's the one that wants safety and security. 

Well, she wants to know that all is well, that she is loved, and that she is protected and guided, right? 

When a new you, the desire for new you shows up, she's super uncomfortable with that because she doesn't know how to handle the new you. 

She doesn't know what the expectations are or what the rules or the guidelines are. 

We have to reset that nervous system and bring little you, tuck her under your wing, and make sure she knows that she's safe in this new environment when things are getting so good, when abundance is rolling in, when we're manifesting the life that we dream of when we're the creators we were meant to be. 

We have to keep settling that little nervous girl who wants things to stay the same. 

She doesn't like change unless mommy or daddy holds her hand and brings her into the presence where she has a parent figure.

She may not have had a parent figure in her childhood, but she does have one with you now. 

If there is a hint, a sense, or a flavoring of danger, things are changing too fast, and we don't know how to handle it. 

She's going to revert back to doing the stuff, riding the couch, eating the food, doing all the things that bring guilt, frustration, and redundancy to our lives until you reset your nervous system. 

That raises the frequency because fear is a very low frequency, but hope is a higher frequency, and peace and safety are much higher frequencies.

You're raising the frequency of who you are so that you can step into your new life and maintain that frequency without running back to safety so that the new norm of your life becomes familiar.

We enter it incompetent and then get good at being that new person. 

That is what's expected. That is how we have grown and moved forward our whole lives.

It was unsafe to stand up on two legs when we were first born, but by rolling over and experiencing our environment, getting up on our hands and knees, rocking back and forth, crawling around, and pulling ourselves up on furniture. 

Eventually, the old stuff wasn't that interesting anymore. 

We got comfortable with the new stuff. That's all we're doing now. 

We're asking for a better experience, a new experience, something that keeps our life alive and exciting. 

In order to reach the higher frequency of becoming your best self, we must take a little of you from the past and help her feel safe in the current situation of the desire to expand.

When you're able to remind yourself, you're like, "I can't figure out why I keep going back to doing the thing that I have always done that frustrates me." 

We realize that that is little you running back there. 

You can pull her in, be with her here, and show her that it's not scary over there. 

That's going to be fun. It's going to be interesting. That's going to be our best selves yet. 

She'll come along for the ride.

The temptation to go back and do old things and sit and watch hours and hours and hours of TV and just your life is just going past you without any growth, that's going to stop because you're like it's uninteresting to ride the couch anymore.

It's more interesting to pick up a paintbrush and put color on the canvas. 

It's more interesting to sign ourselves up and go back to school even though it's super scary, and maybe we feel like we're too old, or maybe the new experiences that we're asking for, the job that we're taking or the shifting careers or reinventing ourselves or whatever it looks like.

Even though we've never had that, we've never experienced it, and it might change the face of what your life once looked like. 

Trust that this is going to work out.

Believe that you are built for more.

 Have faith that you don't have to know how it's all going to work, how it's all going to work out for you.

Just know that it is and reset that nervous system constantly. 

That's going to help you stay at a higher frequency as you move through this new part and new phase of your life and become the person you knew you wanted to become. 

That's how you get it done. 

If there's anything I can do to help you in your journey forward, let me know because I got you.

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